Week Five of Recovery: I wanted to talk about the kleshas because I felt like I was experiencing attachment, but when I pulled out my yoga sutras book so I could properly write it out, I stumbled upon the first sutra in book two instead which turned out to be much more indicative of what I was going through:
Sutra 2.1: Tapah svadhyayesvarapranidhanani kriya yogah.
Accepting pain as help for purification, study of spiritual books and surrender to the Supreme Being constitute Yoga in practice.
As you know already, my thoughts of what a yoga practice is for me have been turned upside down with this injury. I'm used to waking up early, teaching yoga, and then practicing yoga. That is what I do, six days per week, taking Saturdays off. Or better, said, that is what I did. Now as I lie in bed, not being ale to practice yoga in the way I have been used to I needed to redefine what yoga is for me. Sutra 2.1 laid it out for me, accepting pain as help for purification. When I experienced my injury I joked with my best friend that I must have some major karma here in Peru, and that hopefully after this my debt would be paid. I do believe in karma, and I do believe part of that to be true, but its the next two parts of the sutra that made it ever so relevant for me on my recovery. As my body was experiencing physical pain, and my mind was attached to the loss of my physical practice, I became aware of what I could do while I was being afforded this time of physical rest, I could take advantage of svedhyaha and observe self study. I had time to read, time to create and develop the courses I was working on, and more importantly, I had time to give up my attachment to my physical practice. I also had to learn to surrender the the Supreme Being. After the injury there was nothing left for me to do than to trust. Trust in my doctor, trust in my body, and trust that whatever happens is what is meant to happen. That's a tough lesson, but one I had to learn quickly.